Then We Woke Up To Find That Summer Gone...

This work day will never end by all accounts and I think I have put off doing my home work long enough but the idea of doing it now does not seem to be too appling right now. I need to pick a picture and write the meanings that people can take from it on a both symbolic and literal level. The problem is I have yet to pick a photo. I am not being lazy, I promise, but doesn't every picture have a powerful meaning if it is the right one? The only photo I can think to use is the one of that Afhgan girl:


How powerful of an image is this and knowing what this girl was going through in the 80s when the photo was taken makes it the one picture I have never been able to forget no matter how hard I try. Her eyes tell it all and no matter how many pictures I look at no one else can capture the kind of pain and unknowingness that is in the eyes of this girl. I think this is the image I am going to use I just need to get around to writing. Did I mention that I am in a lazy mood.

The worst part of it all is that I want to go home, I should be home by now, It is 4:00 on a Sunday. Yet I am still stuck at the office because there people are here and I cannot leave until they do, she doesnt have a key to lock up! Whatever I get paid for the extra time but it just sucks having to stay here longer. My brother keeps calling me from home with lines from the movie airplane which does not help my boredem... hey its a rainy and cold day I would much rather be in bed right now!
If you have not seen airplane though WATCH IT! ONE OF THE FUNNIEST MOVIES MADE! EVER!
I am bored enough to put down some lines... so enjoy:



Ted Striker: My orders came through. My squadron ships out tomorrow. We're bombing the storage depots at Daiquiri at 1800 hours. We're coming in from the north, below their radar. Elaine Dickinson: When will you be back?
Ted Striker: I can't tell you that. It's classified.
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Rumack: You'd better tell the Captain we've got to land as soon as we can. This woman has to be gotten to a hospital.
Elaine Dickinson: A hospital? What is it?
Rumack: It's a big building with patients, but that's not important right now.

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Elaine Dickinson: You got a letter from headquarters this morning.
Ted Striker: What is it?
Elaine Dickinson: It's a big building where generals meet, but that's not important right now.
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Ted Striker: Because of my mistake, six men didn't return from that raid.
Elaine Dickinson: Seven. Lieutenant Zip died this morning.
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Steve McCroskey: Looks like I picked the wrong week to quit drinking.
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Steve McCroskey: Looks like I picked the wrong week to quit smoking.
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Steve McCroskey: Looks like I picked the wrong week to quit sniffing glue.
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Steve McCroskey: Looks like I picked the wrong week to quit amphetamines.
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[as the plane prepares to take off]
Hanging Lady: Nervous?
Ted Striker: Yes.
Hanging Lady: First time?
Ted Striker: No, I've been nervous lots of times.
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Elaine Dickinson: There's no reason to become alarmed, and we hope you'll enjoy the rest of your flight. By the way, is there anyone on board who knows how to fly a plane?
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Ted Striker: Surely you can't be serious.
Rumack: I am serious... and don't call me Shirley.
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Rumack: Captain, how soon can you land?
Captain Oveur: I can't tell.
Rumack: You can tell me. I'm a doctor.
Captain Oveur: No. I mean I'm just not sure.
Rumack: Well, can't you take a guess?
Captain Oveur: Well, not for another two hours.
Rumack: You can't take a guess for another two hours?
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Rumack: What was it we had for dinner tonight
Elaine Dickinson: Well, we had a choice of steak or fish.
Rumack: Yes, yes, I remember, I had lasagna.
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Controller: I know but this guy has no flying experience at all. He's a menace to himself and everything else in the air... yes, birds too.
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[reading newspaper headlines]
Rex Kramer: Passengers certain to die!
Steve McCroskey: Airline negligent.
Johnny: There's a sale at Penney's!
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Oh gosh and these people are still here!!!!
I WANNA GO HOME!!
and i dont think that is happening any time soon... people have no respect!
I am finding that looking at pictures of clothing online helps, yeah I have become that bored! I did find my dress that I wroe on New Years online though... only mine is black





cute no?
OKay they're gone! I CAN GO HOME!!
YAY!

It's All A Part Of Me, That's Who I Am...

Here are the rules: Type the answer to each question into a Google image search, and you pick an image from the first page of results...easy peasy...and fun!
AGE AT NEXT BIRTHDAY:: 20



FAVORITE PLACE TO BE:: THE BEACH


PLACE I WANT TO VISIT: ITALY

FAVORITE FOOD: SUSHI


FAVORITE ANIMAL: TIGER


FAVORITE COLOR: PURPLE


PLACE OF BIRTH: AHWAZ, IRAN


PET NAME: KARMA


PAST LOVE: BRAD PAISLEY





FIRST NAME: PARADISE


BAD HABIT: TEXTING


FIRST JOB: STARBUCKS


COLLEGE MAJOR: JOURNALISM

We All Have A Song That's Somehow Stamped Our Lives, Takes Us To Another Place in Time.....

It really is all about the words that are said and honestly I am probably the most lyrically obessed person in the world! I love them. I find there to be no point in listening to a song if it doe snot leave you with that one line that makes you go crazy when you hear it! I can think of a million lyrics that have helped define my life better than any one liner from a show or movie. With music it is with you forever and if the song is turly perfect and well written the words just grow in instesity as you get older or find a deeper meaning with them. Either way we really do all have a song that has defined us, has helped us through a moment in our lives.... LOVE IT!

What brings this up is that I was looking up Taylor Swift lyrics at work because I am bored half out my mind and I figured it would be a good way to burn half an hour. I love her style of music, for someone who wrote most of her album at 16 this chick has talent and enough of it that it is scarry to think what amazing things will be coming out of her when she is older. But read the lyrics to this song... It is called COld As You and tell me that you never felt this same way...

You have a way of coming easily to me
And when you take, you take the very best of me
So I start a fight cause
I need to feel something
And you do what you want cause
I'm not what you wanted
[Chorus:]
Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Just walk away, ain't no use defending words that you will never say
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you
You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray
And I stood there loving you and wished them all away
And you come away with a great little story
Of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you
[Chorus:]
Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
So Just walk away, ain't no use defending words that you will never say
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you
You never did give a damn thing honey but
I cried, cried for you
And I know you wouldn't have told nobody if
I died, died for you, died for you
Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Every smile you fake is so condescending
Counting all the scars you made
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through

I learned the path to heaven is full of sinners and believers

I am stuck! and i did not want this blog to be more of my personal venting, but I have no idea what other "bloggers" do in these things. Are you supposed to comment on current events and complain how nothing is going your way while you sit back and do nothing but make suggestions that will never be put into action. Or am I supposed to comment on pop culture and revlove my life around what Britney did. It's sad, the written word is only being kept alive online with these little post that people put up, yet, we use this to talk about the lives of others more than we should. I guess you gotta love it.
At the moment I think I have reached a point when I have found myself feeling more than me. I have decided that today will be the first day when I do not think too much about my past and those who were in it. There is no point in wasting time on what ifs and what could have beens. What is the point in sitting back and wondering what could have been or knowing what should have occured in any situtionw when there is nothing anyone can do to fix it. NO MORE WORRYING!
This is so sad. I like most people tell everyone in my life not to worry and to let it be. I tell people that things will work out in the end when in reality I believe those words as I am saying; yet, I do not take my own adivce. WHY NOT!
Of course I think it is crazy when people say they never look back or never worry. One because it is horrable to ever say never and second of all life needs some kind of relfection in order for any one person to see how far they have come. It is in the excess that I think lays the problem and that is the part that I wish to let go of.

wish me luck and sweet dreams ya'll...

And I Hope Someday You Get The Chance To Live Like You Were Dying...

Hey.
Okay so I do not turn 20 until October but I have made a list for myself of, no joke, about 200 things I need to do before I hit the big 20. I know 20 may not seem that old, but to me this is the start of me not being a teenager anymore and having to act like a grown up, with no idea how to do so. I think I am going through the same mid- life crisis some people experince when they turn 50, but of course I need to get my emotional break down over with early. Just thinking that in a few months I will have lived for two decades, and the thought of what the next 10 years will bring. I will be done with school for good, I will have a real job and entire into this "real world" that everyone speaks so highly of. Who knows I may move a million times, find a great guy and God knows what else can happen.
I know it sounds too soon for me to break down about this but I feel as if this is an ending of an era for me and the start of everything else new and fresh. Dropping the teen from your ages lets go of all the childhood links that are associated to that word.
One of the things I need to get out of the way before I turn 20 is to do what I am doing right now and write in a blog. I have so many other things to do:
1. spend a day on a boat
2. go to the beach all day
3. swim with dolphins
4. find a hair color that I can live with
5. discover new local places
6. get out of the country
7. buy new cloths
8. save money
9. cook something from scrath
10. forgive someone

it may seem silly but i think having a list will make the next 9 and a half months easier... who knows maybe I will love my next 20 years.