And I Hope Someday You Get The Chance To Live Like You Were Dying...

Hey.
Okay so I do not turn 20 until October but I have made a list for myself of, no joke, about 200 things I need to do before I hit the big 20. I know 20 may not seem that old, but to me this is the start of me not being a teenager anymore and having to act like a grown up, with no idea how to do so. I think I am going through the same mid- life crisis some people experince when they turn 50, but of course I need to get my emotional break down over with early. Just thinking that in a few months I will have lived for two decades, and the thought of what the next 10 years will bring. I will be done with school for good, I will have a real job and entire into this "real world" that everyone speaks so highly of. Who knows I may move a million times, find a great guy and God knows what else can happen.
I know it sounds too soon for me to break down about this but I feel as if this is an ending of an era for me and the start of everything else new and fresh. Dropping the teen from your ages lets go of all the childhood links that are associated to that word.
One of the things I need to get out of the way before I turn 20 is to do what I am doing right now and write in a blog. I have so many other things to do:
1. spend a day on a boat
2. go to the beach all day
3. swim with dolphins
4. find a hair color that I can live with
5. discover new local places
6. get out of the country
7. buy new cloths
8. save money
9. cook something from scrath
10. forgive someone

it may seem silly but i think having a list will make the next 9 and a half months easier... who knows maybe I will love my next 20 years.